@jeffowski I feel like this, in particular, shaped me for the worse, growing up. Regardless of what I did, or did not do I would always be punished; so I learned that punishment was a certainty, but enjoyment was not - so I figured that I had to take what I want, if I was going to ever have any chance of experiencing any real joy or pleasure to contrast against the consistent punishment.

My parents weren't intentionally abusive, but didn't understand how to parent a neurodivergent kid