@asterism feeling like you have to do something but not being able to do it burns me out so fast, and the issue is i can’t stop doing it when I realize that’s what I’m doing, i can’t give myself a real break, even though I know that would actually make me more likely to at some point do the thing, and that feeling guilty about it doesn’t help, so I just continue to be stuck in this state and feeling more and more drained and terrible