@bastianallgeier Thank you.
My father was born in 1931. Moved to the US after the war. I recognize some of the things in him. He talked about his time in the Hitler Youth with pride. In the end he was a monster. I remember at three him trying to teach me how to be a 'proud' German. Thankfully it didn't stick.

Don't take this down. It was a hard, but good read.