@trans_kira its a thing a lot of people go through, feeling like they're not "trans enough", or "cis after all", you're not alone :3
im not in the right state of mind (right now) to give you advice on this, but trust me, if you're thinking wether you're trans or not, you probably are :blobhaj_hug_tinybla:
keep asking though, you'll probably find people who can help you point out how non-cis you'd be