@jsbarretto it takes time. All the pain is I think a reflection of the love and specialness you had and feels like it is gone.
But IME it isn't gone. I'm not really sure what has gone because so much is left inside us.
When dad died, for months my memory of him was vivid, alive and as if I'd just seen him. I knew that would change at some point but it took quite a while, seeming as if he was still there.
For mum that took far longer. She would chat to him every day. ❤️