@Gargron Kia ora from Aotearoa NZ. I don't believe you have any need to apologize to us all for invading your space in some crazy run for the hills kind of stampede, but appreciate you doing so.
It doesn't hurt any of us to have some patience and understanding in this life and you have been doing more than the best you can, as you have just demonstrated. So a huge shout out to you, as an amazing human being for providing us this safe place to connect with each other. Kia kaha (stay/be strong).