Hey @Gargron
I am sorry - but not entirely surprised - to read this.
There is no such thing as happy24/7 (not without illegal means, and detriment to other aspects of your life). Being honest about all sides of it is fine with us here, I hope!
I am a bit smug about having been a Patreon of yours since early days, but I also know that this is not enough.
Please let us know what we can do to support you better?