@rustoleumlove
I’ll proceed assuming you write with genuine intent.
That sounds horrific and you should not have had to experience either of those.
You deserved better. I’m glad you found use and comfort that day, gun or not. I’m glad you felt capable enough to use it.
However, that is still twice in your life.
I don’t intend to undermine the chronic impacts of serious crime on anyone’s life.

But that final statement is not an accurate summary of OP’s points, either.

@Impossible_PhD