@enby_of_the_apocalypse yep, thats a struggle for sure.
I also struggle with wanting to do something, having the energy to do the thing, but having a strong need to not listen to anyone telling me what to do (which applies to myself for some reason)
@asterism I get that… I also get stuck in that depression and/or painful adhd boredom feeling of “everything i actually want to do looks too fun to do when I’m feeling bad like this, I feel like my current mood would ruin the thing, but also everything else I could do is very unappealing and boring or exhausting”