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 @gsuberland @mcc This isn't why the AI craze has made me anxious, but it *is* why I have become terribly depressed. I like writing code and making various weird computer programs, and sharing them with people for mutual entertainment and occasional enlightenment. Now I can't do that without accepting that everything I do will be appropriated and commoditized by some of the most horrible people in tech, unless I do it in secret. And then what's the point? 7 comments
@asmaloney @gsuberland @mcc That's where I'm at too. And I have never been as depressed as I have this last year. For every other awful period in my life, I always had creative computer things to fall back on - literally, that has been how I kept from going too crazy in the entire story from "tiny bullied autistic kid" to "middle-aged guy holed up all alone during a pandemic". There was always coding and writing. @asmaloney @gsuberland @mcc Coding feels especially meaningless now. I try to convince myself that even after we all get fired and replaced with shitty AI, we could still do it for fun - but it's not fun when you know all you're really doing is providing more free training data for the same assholes who are actively working to destroy your life. @datarama "middle-aged guy holed up all alone during a pandemic" I feel seen (as the kids say these days). 😆 @asmaloney I sometimes think about how much that particular experience has coloured the rest of my experience of this bleak, bleak decade. I sat at home with nearly no social contact for 1½ years (except what came in through Teams), and even if I'm a bit of an introvert, I'm sure it made me a bit crazy. @datarama Me too. Really struggling to "dig out" of that and then all this other shit ("AI", wars, climate, politics, layoffs for even more profit, the shoddy state of software in general, etc.) just piles on. I think we're very much in the same situation, so you aren't alone. I hope you find some peace or at least some outlet to move things in a positive direction. I'm still lookin'... 😀 @asmaloney I've been looking for a long, long time too. And I don't know the way out. Every crisis is immediately followed by the next, without any of them being resolved. I am so tired. |
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@datarama @gsuberland @mcc > And then what's the point?
💯 I'm feeling exactly the same way and I'm really struggling with it.
Not just code but blog posts/tutorials as well. I've "lost" my main creative outlets.