Gregory's Server
There are some crazy things happening around. Especially it's apparent when I try at least from time to time check the news. Multiply it by my personal issues factor and you get +100 to the sense of decay, gloom and despair.
I try to compensate this by working hard and doing other creative activities such as playing piano, writing a book and learning another foreign language. I gained some success here and there and it convinces me that not everything is lost at least.
There's an urge in me that I feel for a long time, a burning need of self-actualization, a need to achieve something in my life. That urge became even stronger in the last two years as it feels like the world around me is going to fall apart someday and even the legendary blue electrical tape and some glue won't be enough to fix it.