I find it hard to get motivated or to do something, I am just running on autopilot by doing things that require the minimum amount of energy.

Yet somehow I can’t fucking sleep and my thoughts don’t formulate properly. I wonder if this has always been happening to me…

I get sudden bursts of inspiration and excitement to do something, and when I get to do it I just flatline. I rarely finish something now and its starting to piss me off. Like why can’t I just do something without feeling drained or exhausted? I don’t know, maybe I am that lazy… but that’s always been my excuse.

So at this point, I really don’t know. Do I just don’t want to do anything anymore? But then I get bored of doing nothing.

Aaaaaa I don’t get it!