i wish i had access to that feeling of "meaningful and inspirational introspective melancholy" rather than the way i experience sadness recently which is like "reacting to everything i see by being moderately pissed off about it but having no idea why it actually bothers me so much, and then feeling guilty about my inability to just be chill and positive about stuff"
i have a theory that maybe ive just been too much on the internet this year. ive just seen too much stuff. too much information.
and maybe the way one reacts when confronted with too much stuff is just like... mildly irritated all the time and subtly wanting it to all go away???
is that the true symptom of information overload? when a new thing comes out that you've been looking forward to and your first reaction is "ughhh not more stuff that now exists"