12/ "And zero information about what was happening. They didn’t touch us, but the screams from the other half were so loud that it was impossible to sleep. Then they told us to go there and clean up: wash off the blood and all that."
After being sent back to the front line, Alexander realised that he could not declare himself a pacifist. Otherwise, "they would have put me in a pit or a basement in Zaitseve, and if I had not re-educated myself, they would have “zeroed” me, that is, shot me."
13/ Alexander has coronary heart disease and suffered a heart attack, a broken leg and a severe concussion, presumably during a Ukrainian attack. The head of his battalion's medical unit gave him papers to cross the border and go back to Russia legitimately.