11/ "I reached the border, but the border guards caught me and took me to the famous Zaitseve — I spent two weeks in a basement there. The basement was set up like this: it was divided into two parts. In one part were those who had done something serious — for example, shot someone while drunk, or just convinced refusers. They were beaten there. I was sitting in the other, “normal” part — there were just bare boards, they fed us twice a day, and didn’t let us smoke."
12/ "And zero information about what was happening. They didn’t touch us, but the screams from the other half were so loud that it was impossible to sleep. Then they told us to go there and clean up: wash off the blood and all that."
After being sent back to the front line, Alexander realised that he could not declare himself a pacifist. Otherwise, "they would have put me in a pit or a basement in Zaitseve, and if I had not re-educated myself, they would have “zeroed” me, that is, shot me."